Dancing

I swivel and sway to that old record on the player.

The stench of cigarettes and apples fill the air as my drink trickles down the lo-ball glass that is hard to balance when my arms are around her.

She has always been my safety.

Whenever things I can't control and life gets in the way I return.

Our connection is stronger than any physical love we have because we have always connected on a spiritual and emotional level.

I remember that feeling confusing me when I was young and immature.

Her hot breath blowing down my neck as she held my naked upper body.  The feeling of her cheap cotton bra pressing against my back.

At that moment of my youth, I became angry and scared at the possibility of us ruining the best thing that had ever happened to me.

Emotionally and spiritually I cut myself off from her affection, until we reached an age where we both understood each other better.

Now it's like no time has passed and although we kiss one another on the lips, it's more of a respectful move than a disrespectful one.

Our love is the kind every person should try and achieve, for that fictional love we all read and hear about from society does not exist.

And when we open ourselves up to that kind of manipulation, we become the most vulnerable.