First Love

I used to call him Daddy Long Legs.

I was his Spinsterella. 

Together we broke knuckles,

and fucked like teens.

He said my pussy tasted like red vines,

and Fireball.

We rioted from city to city,

looking for cheap thrills.

Greasy barbecue joints,

spray painted pools,

after-hours Cuntry Clubs.

We did it all.

What I'm most proud of,

is that we both acknowledged our expiration.

We broke into a bowling alley,

and made love on lucky lane thirteen.

Our bodies couldn't keep rhythm

because the oil underneath us made it too slick. 

Eventually we made our way to the end of the lane,

scoring a strike.

When all the pins fell,

I came the hardest in my life.

Before I fell asleep,

he told me he loved me.

That's when I knew we were over.

In the morning,

I found the pin he left for me.

It was tagged DDL.

A souvenir,

from my first love.

Nazi Masks

This world is starving for attention.

Their ignorance are ploys for validation.

I reject them,

you,

and all unresolved trauma.

I Revoke Thee

To create,

is to procrastinate,

and masturbate to the final results.

My wounds,

can be found,

in a tomb of self sabotage.

Winning,

is not swimming,

it's a fallacy.

Change the hate,

so when you procreate,

your seed wont spoil.

Looming,

doom,

feels,

ever so new.

So why smile,

when there's grins all around?

I revoke your negativity.

Cliff Dancing

Light the lantern,

and throw on your slip cover. 

Tip toe across the grainy wood floor,

avoiding the extra creaky boards.

I have something to show you,

but it must be done in secret.

Go to the spot where the moon is brightest,

and listen for the crash of waves against the rock.

Descend the rickety steps,

till you feel the sand under your feet.

Make your way into the darkness.

Don't be scared.

I will wait where the water tickles your toes.

Then you will see.

Cross The Sea

Truth is found in the belly of the beast,

where the smiles end,

and the realness follows.

To activate,

you need to let your guard down,

and others in.

Like a Venus fly trap,

you can lure them in,

but there's no escaping,

once they see your insides.

Inside your darkness lies beauty.

I only hope it doesn't take you over. 

Masochist State Of Mind

Keep the faith,

and smile through the facade.

I hide in plain sight,

making terrible decisions,

because pain has followed me my whole life.

Moments of happiness,

are fleeting.

My sensitive nature,

makes me that much more in-tune,

with reality.

We grow up ignoring the signals,

the slights,

others negative body language.

I have mastered these techniques,

but choose to silence my observations.

To live and let love is the best option,

but can be impossible,

when others expect so much from you.

Rest assure little bird,

one day you'll be in the sky again.