Manic panic,
as I navigate,
all the chaotic static.
Spacey,
and dazey,
I try and navigate
these phases.
To perpetuate,
and procrastinate,
is excellence,
and exuberance.
I'm always learning,
often losing,
always laughing,
never choosing.
Observe and report,
to you, yourself ,and I.
You might just feel something for a change.
I always knew I wasn't going to live a full life.
When you wish on a star,
and pray for your own death at a young age,
the universe listens and give you exactly what you ask for.
Life's cruel,
yet fair lessons.
We live through pain,
but walk away changed.
Now that my life has turned around,
I feel my days shortening.
I am nearing 40,
but don't expect to live past 60.
Anymore years will just bring pain,
heartache,
and loss.
I don't want to outlive my loved ones.
I wish for peace and tranquility.
Knowledge and strength.
Competence until the very end.
