What Are You Looking At?

Eyes fluttering,
heart pounding,
I've completely lost my breath.

Teeth grinding,
nails clenching,
I wonder why I can't pull myself together?

Depression brings longing,
longing fuels anxiety. 

Anxiety clouds reason,
reason becomes obsolete.  

How do you stop this vertigo induced carousel?

We're conditioned to want companionship,
and content with average.

The older you get, 
the more you see the facade.

Society's view of success is money, marriage and offspring.

I see the tragedy of it all. 

The loss of innocence.

The sacrifice of dreams.

The negativity.

Heartbreak.

Solitary togetherness. 

We live to love,
but yearn to live.  

One of the strongest things a person can do,
is stare at their own reflection. 

How does it feel?

What do you see?

Is their magic in your eye,
or was it stripped away?

Everything travels at the speed of light.

Take a second to stop.

Breathe.

Exhale.  

You don't get these moments back.

Here Comes The Bride

For better or worse,
I take on every emotional joy and trauma.

Like riding a bike,
words have always poured out of me like rain water.

These experiences have soaked into my core,
allowing me to see beyond the obvious. 

For years I tried to be something for everyone.

I found it easier to deal with contentment,
instead of learning from uncomfortable chaos.

I will never understand dissociation.

There is so much texture,
and beauty to life,
even in the hardships.

You just need to lift the veil to appreciate it.

Where You Been?

It's been a while,
but I've been on an exodus of self discovery.

Something has shifted,
be it astrology,
the weather,
or simply put,
my priorities.

I'm no longer interested in focusing on the unimportant,
but calming the noise,
and easing the inner tension.

Most people spend their whole life searching for answers they'll never get.

I want to settle with the ones that have been answered.