Sometimes I don't know what I'm getting myself into. Just when I start to settle in and feel comfortable, I'm yanked out and thrown to the wolves.
Why couldn't I just have picked a more "realistic" setting and career. There are millions of people just waiting to be discovered and the chances of this lone actress is far and few between.
I thought, for just a minute, even a nano-second that I could change my life for the better and become a better person. Shows what I know...I'm an unmotivated girl living in a fast car, bumper boat town. If I don't have my gaurd up or even a fucking tube of lipstick in my purse, they'll throw me in the dungeon and have my female parts castrayted for the world to see.
I'm not ready to sacrifice my lifestyle. I'm not ready to give up on love. I think the things I love the most are the things that hold me back. There is no best of both worlds, it's one or the other. Sink or swim, dive or jump...but beware of the sharks who crave for fresh meat.
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